How do you make a moment last forever?

This is my question to myself as I stare out into the blue ocean while strong arms are wrapped around me.

The beginnings of tears begin to come to my eyes as a beautiful flood of emotions arise in my chest.

I want to freeze this moment amongst so many others over that last few days.

The kisses
The caresses
The heart shares
The laughter
The way I’ve been pampered so perfectly in a way that arouses my feminine in a way I’ve been hungry for recently.

A pain is digging it’s way into my chest and I can feel the spasm of energy throughout my back.

I have to lean into the pain and breathe. Find that deep cleansing breath deep in my abdomen.

I am in the middle of getting some beautiful energy when I feel an overwhelming wave of emotion beginning to make itself known.

I have to lean into the emotion and breathe. Find that cleansing breathe deep in my abdomen.

Though with it comes more emotions. More waves. And I don’t desire to be in these choppy waters. I find myself cutting off my breath and thus the emotions. To be stored in my body and dealt with another day. To most likely come out in less healthy waves. Yet I can’t find the courage to lean in here.

My ego is throwing a huge dance party. I am coming up with anything and everything to throw out internally at myself and those in this room. Again, I have so much emotion here but it is all ego, thought driven, BS! There is so much I could yell about, stomp my feet about, and really I could blow up things that I don’t really desire to blow up.

I have to lean into the ego thoughts and breathe. Find that cleansing breath deep in my abdomen.

I need to breathe into these thoughts enough to see what is true. What is actually my emotions. What is picked up. And in the end really where the hurt is coming from. Because my ego is screaming lies that I know are not my truth. They are trying to just create drama.

Breath.

So simple. And yet in these moments of physical pain, emotional pain, and ego…it can be a major challenge.

Instead we constrict. We contain. We don’t allow. Even when we have the knowledge of the importance.

Though the more we practice our breath and not in any fancy, deep breath techniques way, but simple deep cleansing breaths… the easier it will be in these moments of struggle.

The easier it will be to connect to our bliss overall. The more we will see beyond the veil of our false selves and see the beauty that is truly within and without.

Where are you missing your breath?
Where are you disconnecting from self by disconnecting from breath?
Where are you disconnecting from your life?

Step in today.

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Lifes Little Orgasms

As I sit here in my car in the hot Texas summer, I have a sense of peace in my heart. I look out the car window and am amazed at the beautiful green trees that stand resilient against the beating heat. If you look hard enough you can see a pure white aura glowing from their steady statures. Around is a dazzling blue cornflower blue sky with white puffy clouds that make me want to dive into their marshmallow-ness. Even the soft breeze that blows through my window and dance across my skin takes strands of my hair off on a miniature dance.

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