Have you ever had a conversation… A conversation that you are dreading or maybe one that just pops up but that you can feel the weightyness. The importance of the conversation but at the same time the ego fear of being “too seen” or not being “seen enough”.

Those  conversations that make your heart race, palms sweaty, or your heart cry out. The messages you avoid hearing or that you avoid sharing out of fear. Fear of self. Fear of your heart being broken or in turn breaking another. Fear of doing more harm than good. And definitely fearful of your own fluid flowing emotions.

And thus many run from the depths of these conversations. Putting blockades up against fully diving into these moments.

But after some hard conversations in my own life I can tell you…

The hard conversations can often be the most loving!

Our difficult conversations are the ones that we must share a piece of self and our vulnerability. We strip ourselves bare and lay it out with all the pieces of us. The shadow and the light.

Usually they require extra breathing, extra tapping into the body, and extra heart. Read more

I won’t ask….
 
I won’t ask for you to hold space as I pour out my heart and get naked right before you.
 
You have no responsibility to my heart and nakedness
 
I won’t ask for you to look beyond my tears, my anger, and even my smile and see what is happening just below the surface.
 
You have no responsibility to see me
 
I won’t ask you for you to reach out just to connect, to invite me to do things, or want to build this thing we have and find new depths.
 
You have no responsibility to depth

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Whoa, EGO!!!
Yes, the ego within yourself that you want to deny as ego spouting from your core.
It’s icky and sticky and you share it with those closest to you.
You feel the cauldron bubbling deep within you and at times it oozes out of your very being.
 
Feeling the massive weight of introverted ego created from your past and simply from your humanity.
And that ego, those insecurities, are what keeps you from the relationship you desire.

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Don’t you ever get tired?
Tired of holding it all together.
Holding it together within yourself and then trying to hold everyone else’s shit together as well.
Trying, working, hustling, planning and overthinking.

Keeping your body and mind tense and always focused. Hustling for your worth out of pure irrational fear.

Fear that if you were to truly let go that you would lose all control over your life and that it would spiral out into mass chaos. That you wouldn’t survive and that you would lose all those around you. Read more

What is your intent with your shares with others in your life?

When you talk with someone and discuss what is happening in your world what is your purpose in sharing?

When you tell another person of negative gossip about them or someone else… what is your purpose?

When you reach out with simply a hello, hi, what’s up… is your intent to truly connect from a pure place?

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I can do hard things!

This is a mantra that I had going through my head this morning as I entered my studio space to do morning yoga.
I am feeling tight and sore this morning, on top of being 6 days into a juice cleanse.

My ego wants to bail!
There is no one holding me to it this morning.
No yoga buddies.
No one that’s going to care if I keep at it. Read more

I’m Only Human

I’m only human.
I can’t read your mind and you can’t read mine.
We must verbalize and share our hearts to know one another at the next level.

To understand and have a better viewpoint of why we say or do the things in our lives… we must speak and not assume.

You and I can both make up stories in our heads about intentions and desires, but most of the time we are wrong.