How has it worked for you thus far?
The internal shaming, blaming and tearing yourself down.
The way you have been ripping yourself apart for even the smallest of infractions.
The way you berate yourself for…
Ego
I see you…
Always working so hard and yet never thinking it is good enough despite your best efforts. I see you looking out at others comparing your insides with their outsides.
Screaming within that if you just did it this way or that THEN it would be better.
Then they would love you more…
Then you would finally be seen…
Then you would get it right.
You want to be loved
You want to be desired
You want to be seen, heard, and celebrated
You sit wondering why it is that no one pays attention
Wondering why you are constantly sending loving energy out but nothing ever comes back at you
Why YOU alone in this world are not loved.
You striving and hustle
You beg and scream
Last night I was looking for something in my email from my mentor and in proper search fashion typed her name in the search bar. Up popped years worth of emails. I was curious and scrolled to the very bottom and began reading our very first coach/coachee interaction.
Do you love them or do you love what they do for you?
Get honest.
Even more honest.
This is just between you and yourself.
I apparently starting doing drugs!!!
Lol, this was a comment that I got on a recent video that I had created and was promoting.
And in truth, I’m ecstatic by the comment.
Why?
Well not because I’m actually doing drugs…
I am overjoyed by the comment because it meant that I was in such flow…so high vibing… so much connected to myself and my spirit…
That I was radiating joy that the average person only can connect to DRUGS.
Hands shaking and sweaty
Stomach caught between butterflies and doing a gymnastics routine
I was really going to do this!
Why am I doing this?
I had a room full of people staring at me and I had some choices.
It’s all about the sex!
You ask me why I’m not talking about sex. Where are all the directly sexual discussions. Where are all the hot and steamy discussions to expand your sex.
It’s all here baby!
It’s right there… can’t you feel it?
Can’t you feel your dream right on the very cusp waiting to blossom?