How has it worked for you thus far?
The internal shaming, blaming and tearing yourself down.
The way you have been ripping yourself apart for even the smallest of infractions.
The way you berate yourself for…
growth
Darling, You are constantly pulling yourself back.
Back from the edge!
The very edge of your greatness.
The greatness that first requires all of you in your full authenticity.
I watch as the tears well up in your eyes and they quickly get blinked away into oblivion
Lawn seats and I am singing my little heart out! I am thrilled to hear my favorite song but you can see me dancing along to almost every tune they decide to play.
Though I glance around.
And my breath catches for a moment as I look around at the crowd. I am truly amazed at how many people look like they are being tortured or just plain bored.
I look at a married couple right in front of me that doesn’t snuggle or kiss during the love songs… not even once.
I LOVE traveling. I enjoy going and see all the exciting new things that each new destination has to offer or simply finding things I overlooked in a destination I’ve been to previously.
I love tasting all the yummy food and drink. Exploring locations and meeting new people that expand my mind. Checking out new sites… and yes sometimes checking out new people at these site 😉
Did I mentioned the water aerobics instructor that was a fine male specimen in Punta Cana this last week? 😋💥
In all seriousness I love the adventure and exploration! It feeds my soul.
I sat there in deep conversation and also emotion last night after a beautiful day of beach, sun, and play.
I was processing through what was coming up for me as I tried to tune into my heart and make plans for some tweaks in my life to find more alignment.
Areas that used to be aligned but that have shifted slightly as they will do. This is the reason why that as long as we live we are never done with our growth work. Read more
I see you…
Always working so hard and yet never thinking it is good enough despite your best efforts. I see you looking out at others comparing your insides with their outsides.
Screaming within that if you just did it this way or that THEN it would be better.
Then they would love you more…
Then you would finally be seen…
Then you would get it right.
Let me tell you a little story!
A story from years ago that I now laugh at…
I’m in a little airport in the Dominican Republic on my way home from a beautiful relaxing girls weekend with my friend. The trip was wonderful and I am sad to be leaving. As we stand in line to go through TSA we are having some great conversation and prepared for a laidback ride home. I place my bags on the belt and take off my shoes and wait to be ushered through the scanners. I walk through with no problem but see my bag being carried away and am asked to follow. I am asked if I have anything sharp or hazardous and I reply ‘no’ as they begin unzipping the suitcase. All of a sudden my eyes fall upon a little black pouch I have in the bag and I feel like I am going to be sick!
Imagine walking into a brand new home.
You walk around and land in a brand new room….
You stand there looking at the walls, the floor, and all the empty space. Blank and ready to be filled.
Or imagine walking into a current room of your home. One that you are ready, and have the ability, to redecorate. You look around and see all that is there…
In both of these scenarios, you are most likely excited and thinking about all the magnificence things you can do to fill the room and make it feel good!!!
You are not one thing… you are everything!
“Addison, you are a Bada*s”
“Addison, you are so spiritually connected”
“Addison, you are so shy!”
“Addison, you are so playful”
“Addison, you are so rigid”
Yep, I am ALL of those things! And so much more
And guess what???
You, my dear, are the same!
You might not be those specific things but you are a beautiful conglomeration of a multitude of different aspects.
Back when I was a full-time therapist I spent years studying a technique call psychodrama. Psychodrama is all about putting the drama of our inner psyche out in front.
Seeing it…
Re-creating it…
Dealing with it…
I still am in love with the methodology but one piece of this technique is something called a “Parts party”
It’s about seeing and working with all the different elements of who were are…
BECAUSE
We are so much more than one thing!
In truth, even in our most authentic living and relating only certain elements will be drawn out based upon the scenario and energy.
This is the beauty of being human and why in relationships there is ALWAYS more to learn and know.
About self
And about other.
Just when you think you know someone and the relationship is getting boring… if you dive just a bit deeper…appraoch things in a slightly different way… get even a drop more of effort going…
You can uncover a beautiful new part!
Often we can find ourselves in ruts with those in our lives because we have stopped allowing ourselves to tap into different energies or parts of self in a relationship.
We get cozy and comfortable with the parts that come out and don’t push ourselves to find that deeper level of authenticity or new energies.
At the same time, we often stop seeing others in our own lives from a different perspective…
If we have seen someone as serious… we struggle to change perspective and see their play
If we see someone as strong and powerful… we miss the moments of softness and vulnerability
If we perceive someone as stuck or lacking in personal growth… we lose sight of all the expansive growth they are making that we are choosing to be blind to.
We get comfortable!!!
Yet, one area we do this in is our own relationship with self.
We lose sight that within us is a treasure trove of magical pieces. We can use these different aspects to move us forwards or to tear us down.
We must choose each day which “parts” we choose to live in alignment with…
Do you wake and choose to focus on the parts of self that come straight from soul or those that have been established from pure egoic experiences?
Do you awake and choose to live in alignment with the parts of self that lift you closer to your soul goals?
The difference?? One makes you feel GOOD. The other type just plain and simply DOESN”T!
We can not control if others choose to touch into our depth
But what we CAN CONTROL is…
If we tune into our own depth and from which parts we are choosing to live from in any given moment.
AND, AND, AND
If we are open and allowing the fluid nature of ourselves then we are opening a door for others to see us in a different light.
If you get stuck thinking of yourself in a narrowly focused way then this is how others will respond to you.
So my question is not “who do you want to be” because the fact is everything you want to be you already ARE…
My question and focus for you is to ask yourself…
“What aspects of myself do I want to shine brighter today? Where will I allow myself to be seen for all that I am?”
Because all parts of you are beautiful and needed
And have made you into the spectacular human you are…
But growth requires us to constantly reexamine where we are leading from.
So where are you leading from today?
Go live a fierce and fulling life today!!
Addison Bell
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Who are You?
Who are you when no one is watching?
What do you dream about when the world gets quiet?
Where does your mind wander when pondering your life?
Who are YOU?
Yes you are living authentically
Yes, you are being real and you
But you know you could be more you!!!