I hear it pop out of my mouth before I can even correct it and I cringe. “I’m going to let God help me”. Really? Really?
Who the f*ck do I think I am that I am going to “allow” God to help me!
I got schooled yesterday… and I mean schooled big time! In my journal over the last few weeks I had been writing about wanting to receive some fun and playful surprises in my life while not stating how this would present in my life. Then on Thursday night I was speaking with a friend about a recent date she had been on and how this man was attentive and spoiled her with attention. My heart soared for her because she was getting some much-needed pampering but I also thought about how I had that same desire right now in my life for pampering, love, focused attention and pleasant surprises. Confession time though, I don’t receive very well and my basic instinct is to spoil other people, instead of purchase/do things for myself. It makes me happy to see the smile, bliss, and joy of those close to me but I can struggle to allow others to give to me. Read more