Yes, the ego within yourself that you want to deny as ego spouting from your core.
It’s icky and sticky and you share it with those closest to you.
You feel the cauldron bubbling deep within you and at times it oozes out of your very being.
Feeling the massive weight of introverted ego created from your past and simply from your humanity.
And that ego, those insecurities, are what keeps you from the relationship you desire.