The energy that was building in my genitals was volcanic.
 
It felt like if I kept going that I was going to melt with the intensity. And yet at the same time, it was all I wanted.
I wanted to melt. To let go. To meld entirely with this sensation.
 
I knew I needed it on a physical and energetic level.
This energy had been trapped for so long and was waiting for the tiniest of cracks.

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I’m currently avoiding my living room!
 
Wanna know why I am avoiding my living room… also known as the area I must pass through to leave my home?
 
On Monday night I got together with a fellow coach and she walked me through a full body mapping art project. The purpose….
 
To F*ck Addison up! 🤣

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I had a lover tell me once years ago when I was having a low period in my sex…

That all I needed was to let him blindfold me…. tie me up… open the door to a hotel room… and let as many random guys as he deemed fit come in and use my body.

THIS was supposedly what was going to fix me!
THIS was his answer to fixing the fact that I wasn’t feeling connected to my body.
THIS was how I was meant to move through energetic blockages. Read more

I sit on my patio starring up at the sky.
A handful of stars shine so incredibly bright that you can’t miss them.
But overall the sky initially just looks dark!
Though I sit…
and I sit…
and I squint…

Deeper into the sky.
Trying to see past all the glow from the city…
Suddenly dozens of stars are shining bright in my vision. Stars that fill a dusted sky.

I squint to see the hidden beauty
To see the depth and the divine radiance that takes just a bit of patience. Takes looking past the shadowy sky.

And I am reminded of the stars in each of our own eyes.
That light that can shine bright and be ever present…
The characteristics that are put right out front for the world to see…
And yes these characteristics are beautiful
But we often hide the true beauty and depth.

It would be one thing if others simply didn’t see that divine starlight in us…
But so many walk around never recognizing the starlight in THEMSELVES!

Never starring into their very own eyes
Into thier own souls to see the beauty that lies within

It is a majestic Universe brighter than anything we could see with our own naked eyes in a night sky

Our beauty and magic is so much more luminesce.

But we hide it in overly grounded humanness…
We allow our egos to stomp down any sparks of light.

Until we make a choice…
Yes, we either continue to allow the dimming or we bust through the heavy darkness.
We claim our vibrancy and purpose.
We claim our authenticity
We claim the spirit within self.
The God within self

Knowing that we were placed here for a reason
And our souls go back longer than the stars in the majestic sky.

We were meant to shine with complete luminescence!
So bright that it could light up a million skies.

But it requires taking the time…
Opening up our very core…
And looking deep within.

Within is the only way to find our very own radiance.

It requires just a moment of looking deeper…
Then continuing to look deeper each day
Past the shadows…
Past the comparison of other bright lights, we see in others
Past the fear
Past the doubt

Straight to our souls.
And then allowing that to flow from us at all points throughout our day…

Letting that energy fill us
Until we can not only see the light within us but we see the light within every other human soul.

We see that we walk around with STARS each and every day.
That we ARE STARS!

But first, you must see the starlight in your own eyes darling!
In this quiet moment
In your very heart.

You were meant to shine!!!!

Love,
Addison!

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You dilute sex to a mere 30 seconds of high-intensity

Until you change your beliefs about your sex, your sex won’t change!

And one of these B.S. beliefs is that sex is about the finish line
About a 30-second climax that is edgy and highly intense
About that peak that leaves us pulling away moments afterwards because it goes from….

High pleasure to TOO MUCH…STOP!
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You have a problem. You have a problem that you’ve looked at for a very long time.
The problem isn’t getting any easier.
Yet you continue to stew, flipping it around this way and that in your mind.

You Bitch… Complain… Moan… Cry…
You might even get a little angry.
Then you end up in a state of begging.

You know something needs to change in your life in order for you to grasp onto your desire. You can feel it right at your fingertips but you never seem to quite grasp it.

So a part of you has stopped even trying and truly reaching out but your heart still desires.

You know you need to do something because the days are speeding quickly by and another year is quickly coming and going…

And yet things remain the same…

You haven’t found that relationship that you so desire to melt into. With that man/woman that drives you wild!

So you date…and you date…and sometimes even drop out of the game for a while. Never finding someone that sticks!

Your sex is stagnant and sure you might get the occasional climactic party but you know there is MORE!! You want those nights of endless passion and you want your partner to enjoy it too.

You might see others around you building their own businesses and climbing upwards in careers they adore.
Yet despite your inner desire for expansion, you feel stuck. You can almost taste the freedom and bliss that this next step would feel like in your career.

So you complain a little more…
You cry a little more…
You scream that you are going to commit

And yet you end up filling your time with other things that take you away from your true desires. You reach for the comfortable distractions that will allow you to feel like you are making progress.

But when things slow down and you have a chance to sit and think…
The regrets and desire feels like it’s eating you alive.

You look at the last few days, weeks, months, and yes, unfortunately… YEARS

Years where you have chosen not to make time for your dreams and thus your dreams have not made time for you.
Where you haven’t chosen to step in entirely.

Yes, you may have done a few things here or there and tried to convince yourself and others that you were really taking the reigns of your desires…

But if that were true…you wouldn’t be here now!

You never made the time to work on the internal and commit to changing your beliefs.
You allowed your ego to sneak into the background and tell you lies. Those little niggling lies.
You leaned into the comfort instead of the true growth
You didn’t truly believe in yourself and thus how could you believe in the desires that are coming straight from your very own heart and soul.

Instead of taking your goals and desires seriously and making time for them to expand…
Expand from a place of personal growth
Expand from a deeper connection to soul
Expand from a place of doing the damn thing

You focus everywhere but where you know you need to be focusing
You tell yourself that you will do it tomorrow
That it will all come together down the road

Honey!
There is only TODAY!
No tomorrow
No “one day”
No “when I have the money”, “when the kids get older”, “when I have the time”, “when the magic f*cking motivation fairy comes down and attacks!”

If you want your dreams and that life you desire then you must choose it
Make time for it
And motherf*cking decide it is worth your attention and focus.

Go live a fierce & fulfilling life!

Addison

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We all find ourselves at times in our lives

Times when we are not sure where to go or what the next right step is in life
Though we all have the strength and power to keep getting up each time we fall

To claim the amazing blessed lives that are waiting for us
To live out our desires

Getting someone on your side can be a huge guiding light!
Walk with you on the journey!!!

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