Others will never see!
The other day I found myself sharing about my childhood home and the tiny little community I grew up in. At one point I even pulled up pictures and maps to explain what I was talking about. This other person of course heard me but the picture in his head was NOT the picture I saw in my own head.
Later that same day I found myself with tears streaming down my face as I was attempting to share a sensitive memory with a friend. A person that knows me better than anyone else in my life. Yet, the words that I was trying to share were not getting through the knot that I felt in my chest and the memory that was right behind my eyes. I stumbled over words and tried to dance around painting a picture but knowing that whatever picture I painted would NEVER truly explain the immensity of the memory.
And as I sat later listening to someone else share on a here and now type situation that was swirling and consuming their lives…

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I was 17yr and was prepping my dance solo for competition. This was the first time I had really undertaken a truly sensual song in my dancing and first time had to convey a deeper sensualness that I had not yet experienced.

At this point, sex was not a thing in my reality and I was incredibly disconnected from my body. I have a distinct memory of my teacher at the time screaming at me from across the room, “just friggin touch yourself already!!! Goodness gracious…it’s not that hard” Read more

I Want A Life of Adventure!

Revised Article seen on Elephant Journal

Dear Lovers,

I want a life of adventure! Let me explain…

I spent the first part of my life living a boring and mundane existence where I followed the rules and did all that I was asked and told to do. I grew up thinking that what others thought of me was more important than what I thought of myself, and so I gave myself away again and again to the needs of others. I never learned how to play or color outside the lines of my mundane life, and the worst part is that I didn’t even see the joy I was missing. I found myself an adult having never truly experienced life, love, adventure, thrill, or excitement outside of books and my imagination.

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