🌛🌟I sit here on this beautiful May evening staring at the stars on my balcony. I try to quiet my mind and just be with the moment. Really tune in and tap in.
🏖I feel suddenly transported to 18 months ago where I had one of the best moments of my life. Sitting under a sea full of stars with my soul sister as we listened to the waves crash onto the beach. I remember feeling spirit swirling within me just like it does in a smaller way right now. I felt my soul. But I also felt like I was in tune with the greater soul of the entire Universe for even a micro-second.Read more →
From the time I was 10 years-old until I was in my twenties, I fought a bloody battle with my own body, which manifested as anorexia and bulimia. I spent 15 years in what can only be described as a hell of my own body but more than anything, a place where I was a prisoner of my own mind. I was blessed, however, to get help and eventually fully recover. I learned to come to a place of peace with my body and formed an essence of neutrality. I no longer put effort into trying to lose weight because I knew this was a slippery slop to relapse. Through the years of recovery it became apparent that I needed to work on my past sexual trauma that was keeping me stuck in not only a war against my body but in many areas of my life, especially my sexuality. I would later learn that most individuals with eating disorders also have some difficulties with their sexuality in some form or fashion. I went to therapy religiously and pushed myself to open up internal boxes that I had bolted shut. The deeper I dug the more disgusted I found for my sexuality and the more my body shut down physically.