personal growth

Appreciation Denied

Addison Bell

When was the last time you actually took the time to truly say thank you
Not a crap, off the cuff, unfeeling thank you
But really took the time and energy to notice

The little things
The big things
The love
The concern
And everything in between

Your lack of appreciation outwards is a reflection of your appreciation inwards

You don’t appreciate the little things within yourself and so how could you ever truly appreciate the little things within another.

You don’t have gratitude for your own efforts and so you blow by all the efforts of others

Not seeing them or instead minimizing, diminishing, or turning them sinister

You smother the love that you so crave because you don’t slow down enough to appreciate and truly see it being offered. Instead you hyper-focus on the type of love you want and it’s scarcity. Giving a big F U to those holding out their hands in offering. Missing what truly is present

You smother the love for yourself because you don’t slow down enough to appreciate self. Instead your beat yourself down. And without realizing it you beat down those around you as well. You take back your love. You second-guess. You close down. A closed down heart is an ungrateful heart. An unappreciative heart. A heart that has lost it’s connection with self.

And in this closing down you close down your sight for the beauty and the gifts. This beauty and gifts are straight from God… and you spit on them!

You can turn this around. You can revel in the offerings of other, of self, and of God.
God wants us to appreciate. In true HEARTFELT (key word!!!) appreciation God rains more blessings down upon us.

More love
More abundance
More blessings
More BLISS

When was the last time you looked yourself in the eyes and said, ‘thank you’. Thank you for being you. Thank you for waking up each morning and striving to grow. Thank you for falling down in order to get back up stronger. Thank you for seeing your shit!

And when was the last time you saw the efforts of another and just stopped. Stopped and said a true thank you. Told that person that they do matter and let them feel seen. Said thank you for another showing you their heart AND their struggle. Thanked another for just being them!

Go out in appreciation today.
Go step into a sense of acknowledgement
Go see the world and much more importantly self with a heart of gratitude.

And step into greater bliss TODAY @ https://addisonbell.net/bliss-coaching/

👑Who Made You King of Anything? 👑

Addison Bell

👑Who Made You King of Anything? 👑

You sit there telling me about me.
Yet, you don’t even truly know me.
You judge me based upon the little pieces that I have allowed you to see of me. You think you know all about me but you know nothing.

You have this distorted fantasy of who I am, where my hang-ups are, and who I need to be
Who made you King of Anything??
Who made your word more powerful than my own? Your desires more worthy? Read more →

Orgasm Blame Game

Orgasm Blame Game

Addison Bell

It’s early evening when I receive the text, and I am relaxing outside and trying to get some work done. I see the name, and I am immediately intrigued because it is rare these days that I see this name on my phone screen. He wants to come over for a little while, and I know that he has plans beyond just chatting. I sit, staring at my phone for a few minutes, pondering my options. On the one hand, I know that I really need and desire some focused attention. On the other hand, I have some major emotional blocks with him right now and am still holding a traumatic event in my body. I have the choice to lean into the vulnerable here or to shut down and completely shut him out. I finally decide to step into vulnerability and see if I can allow my own opening with his help. Read more →

😫I need it. I can’t move forward without it. I’m stuck! 😫

Addison Bell

😫I need it. I can’t move forward without it. I’m stuck! 😫

These are the things that I state as I tear through the boxes in my home looking for a little pink book. This particular book holds business focused journaling, plans, and writings that were in the works of being created. But in the chaos of moving I can’t seem to find it.

I look high, I look low, I even look in the kids toy bins but this little pink book can’t be found. I seriously spend about an hour tearing through stuff. Read more →

Moving & Clearing

Addison Bell

I’ve been in the process of moving over the last two weeks and I’m amazed.
Amazed at all the little junk that a person can accumulate
It’s the little tiny shit that is the biggest pain

The moving of the big furniture is heavy and hard but there is a feeling of accomplishment. 
I see the big furniture.
It’s very present.
What I didn’t see was all the tiny and tedious items
The things that take up space but goes unnoticed Read more →

🤪I feel like I just was transported to Oz! 🤪

Addison Bell

🤪I feel like I just was transported to Oz! 🤪
One day I am standing in one place and writing beautiful manifestations in my journal. The next the manifestation comes to fruition in an most unpleasant way and my entire world looks different.

Toto we are not in Kanas anymore!
New look, new responsibilities, new patterns, and new excitement. 
I’m so fearful but I am committed.

But who the hell am I here?
How do I fit? Where do I fit?
And what is up with this strange new land??
NOTHING feels the same!

And the Munchkins don’t speak the same language!

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