Sex Coach / Expert Author/ Tantric Practitioner
😡Your ego is screaming….”this doesn’t make sense”… and it’s pissed!!
😡Your friends, family and society is yelling at you….”that isn’t responsible/logical/smart”…and they shake their heads at you.
😡Your bank account is crying…”what have you done to me”…and it is constantly knocking at your door with reminders
✔️Those moments when you make a mess of it all and have to face your shadows
✔️Those moments when you wish you could rewind time an hour, a week, months prior and make alterations
✔️Those moments that are so earth shaking that you find yourself suddenly awake when you never realized you were asleep
✔️Those moments of confusion when you are shaky and uncertain
✔️Those moments that you want to rip your chest open to get to the aching heart beating inside your chest
You think you are angry… and you are WRONG!
Yep, im going to start telling you what you are feeling right now because that is always a healthy thing to do 
The great mind reader that can look you in the eyes and for certain tell you that YOU ARE NOT ANGRY!
Practicing the pause
Yes, and I mean practicing.
Let me share something with you.
I HATE pausing. It drives me crazy to be in a state of pause.
It is the morning of my 33rd Birthday! My Master Number year. YAY!!! Another year filled with blessings, lessons, and love.
Time, it is a funny thing. I sit here at my kitchen table writing this and feel both old and young at the same time. I think of the beautiful years that have gone by and I think of the ones that are still to come.
When was the last time you actually took the time to truly say thank you
Not a crap, off the cuff, unfeeling thank you
But really took the time and energy to notice
The little things
The big things
The love
The concern
And everything in between
Your lack of appreciation outwards is a reflection of your appreciation inwards
You don’t appreciate the little things within yourself and so how could you ever truly appreciate the little things within another.
You don’t have gratitude for your own efforts and so you blow by all the efforts of others
Not seeing them or instead minimizing, diminishing, or turning them sinister
You smother the love that you so crave because you don’t slow down enough to appreciate and truly see it being offered. Instead you hyper-focus on the type of love you want and it’s scarcity. Giving a big F U to those holding out their hands in offering. Missing what truly is present
You smother the love for yourself because you don’t slow down enough to appreciate self. Instead your beat yourself down. And without realizing it you beat down those around you as well. You take back your love. You second-guess. You close down. A closed down heart is an ungrateful heart. An unappreciative heart. A heart that has lost it’s connection with self.
And in this closing down you close down your sight for the beauty and the gifts. This beauty and gifts are straight from God… and you spit on them!
You can turn this around. You can revel in the offerings of other, of self, and of God.
God wants us to appreciate. In true HEARTFELT (key word!!!) appreciation God rains more blessings down upon us.
More love
More abundance
More blessings
More BLISS
When was the last time you looked yourself in the eyes and said, ‘thank you’. Thank you for being you. Thank you for waking up each morning and striving to grow. Thank you for falling down in order to get back up stronger. Thank you for seeing your shit!
And when was the last time you saw the efforts of another and just stopped. Stopped and said a true thank you. Told that person that they do matter and let them feel seen. Said thank you for another showing you their heart AND their struggle. Thanked another for just being them!
Go out in appreciation today.
Go step into a sense of acknowledgement
Go see the world and much more importantly self with a heart of gratitude.
And step into greater bliss TODAY @ https://addisonbell.net/bliss-coaching/
I don’t belong here and never have
I don’t belong in this town that you see fake painted faces and smiles
I don’t belong in these four walls that hold pictures and memories
I don’t belong in this body of pale skin, red hair, and freckles.
I don’t belong here and never have
👑Who Made You King of Anything? 👑
You sit there telling me about me.
Yet, you don’t even truly know me.
You judge me based upon the little pieces that I have allowed you to see of me. You think you know all about me but you know nothing.
You have this distorted fantasy of who I am, where my hang-ups are, and who I need to be
Who made you King of Anything??
Who made your word more powerful than my own? Your desires more worthy? Read more
Play Is Messing Up My Life 
😝
Yep, it is the culprit for all my struggles right now.
I was not raised to play! I was raised to sit still, look pretty, and act like a porcelain doll.
People look at me with disbelief when I say I did not play as a child.
They don’t believe me. All children play!
But it’s the truth. Read more
