I was working on some journal work about what I love about myself. Years ago my journal would have been blank… totally and utterly blank.
Actually, I can remember many, many years ago being in treatment for a severe eating disorder, lying on the ground and hysterical crying over this exact question. I couldn’t find anything lovable within. Having to answer the question simply reminded my adolescent, starved mind of how horrible and underserving I was. Believing there was nothing worth saving. 😥Read more →
I open the screen to the training….OMFG!! This is A LOT of content and work. 😱
I yell at myself…Breathe!!!! It probably looks like more than it is. I decide to start at the very beginning and so click play on the first training. Half-way through the first training video I feel like I am hyper-ventilating. 🤢Read more →
You are always the strong one. The one that holds it together for everyone else. The one that is dying inside, but puts on a smile for those around you. You are the one that can have tears streaming down your face in the car because your heart has been broken and yet you are able to pull it together to walk into a room like a Goddess. Everyone is always complimenting you, but the truth is they don’t truly see you, they don’t see your heart and your true soul, and so it means nothing. They simply see your allure, but so you walk around feeling unseen and unknown. Read more →
I would never suggest anyone to ever watch or read the 50 Shades of Grey trilogy. There are a million things wrong with these stories from a sexual education and from a healthy relationship perspective that makes me want to cringe. That being said, there is a reason that this storyline has captivated millions. Out of all the erotic stories that are published each year, this particular story was able to break through the sexual stigma of our society to open up many women to different types of play and their own arousal. Why? What happens in these books that some women have found engrossing? Ask a woman that knows these stories and each will answer differently, but a common theme includes the male character, Christian Grey. Read more →
I begin to become aware of the soft bed and pillow beneath my head. My eyes crack open only the smallest amount as I try to grip the strange dreams that are quickly slipping like sands from my memory. My mind begins to process. Morning. Sunday. Last night was event. Still sleepy…no not sleepy, drained. I say my morning gratitude prayer. Then as I begin to pull out of bed and process the energy that still is looming in my body from an intense previous day my Ego quickly begins to join the party. By the time I have coffee and my journal, I realize that the healing energy from yesterday has pulled up old wounds. I begin my journaling, and I see the words that are flowing out of me that speak of isolation, feeling left out, not wanted, tolerated, and speak directly to my worthiness. “Whoa, whoa”, I think to myself, “I have been super included, I have no reason to feel unwanted after everything yesterday and being simply tolerated is just utter bullshit”. I am at utter war with my mind and my emotions. God versus the Enemy. My adult self versus my childhood wounding. My energy versus absorbed energy from others. The war rages! Read more →
We pull up to the resort, and I am excited and can feel the anticipatory building in my stomach. Our butler puts us on his golf cart and begins to drive us through the property as I am struck by a small glimpse of a pure blue ocean and palm trees. I am in amazement at the architecture and the attention to details. We pull up to our Villa, and I hold my breath. I have waited, dreamed, and planned for this moment, and to see if I was able to manifest my dreams. This vacation is uniquely special to me, and I want to make sure it’s as magnificent as I imagined. I open the door, and my jaw hits the floor, and then my breath catches in disbelief. Read more →